still crazy busy (that's a good thing)

I haven't updated in a while because i've been crazy busy with my book.  It's taking up all my time, that's why I haven't updated here or YouTube.  And when I'm not working on my book I'm thinking about it. ๐Ÿ˜Œ  My sleeping pattern is fucked because of it, now I sleep during the day and I'm up at night. ๐Ÿ˜ญ  Not just that, I'm going through bouts of depression as per usual.  Haven't been to the doctor in a while.  I'll have to schedule an appointment so this doesn't effect my book editing.  I almost got hit by a bunch of cars the other day and a part of me wanted to be hit so I'm making a doctor's appoint pronto. (And I haven't started that behavioral health program yet.)

I've learned to never ignore those signs.

I want to get back to my YouTube videos but it's hard for me to focus on more than one thing at a time and I feel my book is more important.  I did make a video for my author channel, a writing vlog.  I'll link it below for people who are curious, other than that I've been trying to stay sane and in shape.  I find that ever since I've begun working on my book it exhausts me to the point that I don't want to exercise.  I'm eating right and my weight seems to maintain at around 115 pounds which is great but the thought of not exercising at least 5 days a week scares me.  

I don't want too ever get out of shape again.  

The one year anniversary of me quitting my job is coming up and I can't believe time has gone by so quickly.  Expect a sentimental post (or video) about that.  I'll have to start looking for a job soon ๐Ÿ˜…(for many reasons) I may do a post on that too.  

Life is busy right now and that's a good thing. ๐Ÿ˜



Sorry for lack of blog posts for the last few weeks i've seriously dedicated to finishing my book, just the rewrites specifically.  I'm focusing on my book while I have this free time on my hands.  I've gotten back into reading and just utilizing my time to become a better writer.  I wrote before that my book will be published this year or early 2018 and I mean that so I've been putting in work.  I've always put my writing and me as an author in general on the sidelines, not anymore.  Now I'm building a real brand.  

I have a lot coming up, it's stressful but exciting. ๐Ÿ˜…

I also made an Instagram for me as an author, follow here if you want!



I'm at a point in my life where I feel like I should be doing more.  I should be accomplished and have "experiences" yet here I am in my apartment huddled up like a hermit.๐Ÿ˜Ÿ  I guess I'm feeling this way due to seeing some of my family members my age graduating from university.  It makes me wonder if that should be me.  I know I'm currently working toward a better future for myself so I need too stop comparing.  I have a problem with being envious and I need to work on it because I know being this way has/will hold me back.  Also I'm trying too focus on what I'm doing now in terms of goals.  I'm doing things now I never dreamed I'd be able to do.  I'm molding myself into the person I've always wanted to be it's just going to take time.  Until then I'm going to keep writing my book, working out, and watching Korean beauty gurus/vloggers (i'm literally addicted๐Ÿ˜‚).