what's been up?

Life has been rough which is why I haven't updated in a while; stress, depression, etc. Currently I'm not working and I'm no longer in that mental health day program due to it causing me more stress then I could handle. So now I'm unsure what to do except live day by day as best as I can. Meaning working out, eating healthy, and working on my book (also figuring out my job situation). I know shit can be worse so I refuse to be all "woe is me", I've gone through worse in my life and I'll get through this. 



My blog will be going through a lot of changes, one of the biggest is I've decided to combine this blog with my writing blog. So instead of having separate blogs I'll make writing updates, etc here. Also I'll be updating more often, I want to become a more consistent blogger. I don't care if blogging is considered dead it makes me happy and I'm going to continue doing it. 

I want to follow more blogs, if you're an active blogger don't be afraid to put your link below. If I like your content I will definitely follow you!


over it all.

So I lost it at work and by lost it I mean having an argument with a co-worker, throwing my glove at the floor, crying hysterically, and threatening to leave until my manger came in on his day off. Also being in an airport there's cameras everywhere and the police saw it and sort of stalked me while I was working then asked if I was okay. Hours later I was embarrassed and annoyed I couldn't control myself. At the same time I'm kinda shocked this hasn't happened sooner, I'm unhappy at this job as usual. The argument happened because this girl got mad at me for not helping her with something at work even though she never ASKED and I was never told I had to do this. I stock markets in an airport, it sounds simple, it's not. Thankfully me and this girl talked it out and she apologized but still I hate how I reacted and I know it was pent up frustration.