Today for some reason everything felt like it was just going wrong. WRONG WRONG WRRROOOOONG!!! I hate days like these. Work was long, overbearing, and annoying. I can't wait until I go back to school I'm going to make sure whatever career I decide on having has nothing to do with department stores or cashiering. I had to work eight hours and I felt like I was going to explode because of how busy I was. I had to put people on breaks and nobody seemed to want to come back on a timely manner. Than I had to clean, then I had to run back and forth from third floor to first floor to get the women's department supplies while pulling this heavy ass cart on this stupid elevator which I think is going to shut down any minute. Then my manager yelled at me so now I think I might be fired soon. Everyone keeps telling me she won't fire me but I'm still worried so now I'm going to start searching for another job. I NEED to go back to school ASAP but it's so hard for me to apply because I'm worried I'm not smart enough.
Okay, I'm not stupid. In high school I always got the best grades especially in English and the teachers loved me but for some reason when I started my first year of college everything went downhill. I think it's because so many negative things happened to me last year. I won't even list them but they're really messed me up. I see people I work with who've had the same boring, bland, meaningless job for years and it terrifies me. I have so many goals and staying at a stupid department store is definitely not one of them. At first I wanted to major in Political Science but now I don't know so much. For some reason I've become more interested in things like promo modeling, acting, and maybe being an entertainment journalist. My mom tells me I'm beautiful and I should try commercial modeling or acting as if it's that easy. It takes more than a beautiful face to entertain people. I still plan to become a flight attendant as soon as I experience what it feels like to be on a plane I'm definitely signing on! Sorry guys for the personal rant I just had to let it out.
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