I'm making this quick post to tell you guys why I haven't updated in a while. Well to put it simply my life is exploding at the moment and I'm doing everything I can not too snap. I recently went to my dad's house for a so called "vacation", nope, it just added more fuel to the fire. And I might be fired from my job which is great since I hate my job and bad since I don't know how long it's going to take for me to find another one. I've been looking like crazy. Also a guy I've known for a few years, (we talked a lot but it never got to the boyfriend/girlfriend level) I found out he committed suicide. Like yesterday. We stopped talking a while ago but recently he tried contacting me through Facebook, even calling me but I ignored him, I'm trying not to think about it. And lastly, I've gained a lot of weight, it's gotten so bad I'm resorting to diet pills. I'm still working on my books, it's hard though, the stress and anxiety makes it impossible to write. I do plan on to make a longer more in depth post once I have everything a little bit more figured out. Thanks.