The past few days have been absolute hell for me to be honest. Not sure what came over me but a few days ago I got sick, very sick. I still feel sick now but I have some nausea pills that have been helping. Basically I was vomiting over and over and couldn't move, my mom got so worried she called 911. Which is the picture I took of the emergency room, it was embarrassing to have paramedics walk me down a busy street to their ambulance.😴 At the hospital they acted very cold and unwelcoming which is why I hate hospitals. They pinpointed my sickness back to me taking a medication I hadn't taken in a while so I randomly took it (an antidepressant) and it must've triggered the nausea and vomiting. Afterwards I had to walk home because no one wanted to pick me up LOL but it was only a short walk to my apartment. Still it's kind of fucked up that none of my family cared enough to get me. My life I guess. When I got home I weighed myself because I hadn't eaten for days and I weighed 107 pounds, the lowest I've ever been in my life. But I don't look good I look sickly, ever-since I got sick my eyes look sunken in. That combined with being thin makes me look like a drug addict.
Also my anxiety has been shooting through the roof because one of my YouTube videos has brought upon a lot of negativity. Arguments and name calling. It got so bad I had to disable the comments, I don't want my channel to be a negative place, my life is negative enough. I guess it's my fault for putting myself out there and having an unpopular opinion. 😴😩 I think if this was a different time in my life I wouldn't feel as effected by the comments but right now it feels like I'm having constant mini panic anxiety attacks and I can't deal with it.