I've been stressed, suicidal (as usual), and jobless. That's basically it. Personally I find it difficult to do anything I enjoy when my stress takes over. The past few months my stress has hindered me more than ever. It's been HARD, that's the only way to describe it. Honestly I feel like I haven't been fully conscious like I'm a ghost watching myself deteriorate and I can't do anything about it.
Just, it's been hard.